so, although no one really reads anything i write anymore... i thought i'd update. tell you all that dont read this whats been up in the pathetic life of mine. two weeks ago i got dumped. i lost 16 pounds. realized that i cant have everything. almost wanted to kill a few people. hit my head as hard as i could onto a table.... still sore like four days later.... oops plotted revenge with a friend at work..... hehe... yeah but that solves nothing.... but, i must say, i liked the idea hung out with nikole who i havent seen in forever. i've been trying to be out of the house as much as i can. i hate the holidays, i'm always depressed around this time. but then again i have to look at the bright side of things.... which at times is hard. but i think i'll get through everything just okay.... this week i have to work a lot. my aunt wants me to shop with her and ayla on wednesday. to shop or not to shop? i get paid that day too.... last minute shopping. snobby aunt. crazy. chaos. fun. i dont know. if i manage to make other plans than i wont go with them, but i dont know if that will work out. well.... happy christams and all that junk. | 
